Experiment: Why do I not like you? Why?

So I was thinking today about people that I don’t like. More so, people that I don’t like from the very first time I meet them. I just don’t get it. I do not really understand my reasoning besides I just don’t like them. I am not exactly sure if that is so fair. I’m going to attempt to do a little personal experiment for myself to figure this shit out.

I found a perfect test subject. I meet this girl this weekend and I hate her. I don’t think I am supposed to say hate or whatever, but I really really dislike her. She is a friend of a friend and I think I may have to spend some time around her in the future. Anyways, I meet this girl and immediately I try to find an excuse to get the hell away from her. I don’t exactly know why, but I do. I find myself, as I do with most people I can’t stand, pretty much drifting off to another land while she is talking to me. This girl could be telling me that her puppy just died and here I am nodding, yea okays, and oh how cools. Not listening at all.

Now I can’t go and tell people that I don’t like this girl, and do not want to be around her, because simply I have absolutely no legit reason why. What is wrong with me? Typically, I like most people and I would like to think I try and give people the benefit of the doubt. I mean, I am a social worker, and am in the business of working with people, so I don’t necessarily consider myself an anti-social bitch. But there are like a handful of people that I have met over my years that I just cannot take and it is always from the first time I meet them.

I am going to try with everything in me to actually like this girl. I am going to try and actually listen to her when she talks. I will not stand at the other end of the bar when she is around. Every conscious effort I can make to give this girl a chance I will take. I am not necessarily doing this because I want or need another friend, but just because I want to figure out what it is that makes me hate someone so much without even knowing them. I mean I like plenty of people that suck ass and need life rehab so why is it so different in this situation. I am determined to get right to the bottom of my bitchyness.

Most likely, I will fail by the end of the day. I am already hating her for being in my head for this long. I am wishing myself luck. Good luck.