Hey hey, I am back

Okay so I haven't written on this thing in so so long.  Between photography work and my insane work schedule I have not much time to do anything.  But recently I have felt like I have so much to write about and no where to put it.  I felt like I had abandoned this thing, and it wasn't right to just pick it back up, but then I remembered the blog has no actual feelings.  It is not mad at me or something. 

So anyways, here I am.  I probably will return for now and then disappear again.  But hey, really who cares...no one probably even reads this mess on the reg. 

The amount of shit that has happened to me in the (almost) year since I have written is amazing.  Most importantly the fact that I got engaged, and holy shit, I am getting married.  Who would've ever thought that?  Sure as hell not me.  I noticed that in the beginning of my engagement I went to worrrrkkkkk.  I busted my ass and secured my venue in just about one week's time.  I was determined to get married in October of next year.   Most importantly however, I noticed that all I talked about for like two-four weeks was this god damn wedding that is one year away.  I wanted to tell myself to shut up and I am sure that my friends felt even more eye rolls and STFU's then I can imagine.  I've been there, trust me.  I said I would never be that way, and I have finally gotten to the point of annoying myself enough, that I am taking a bit of a break.  Well sort of.  I am sure I will write about this experience in just about every post, but honestly, this is my life and this is what I am experiencing, so bear with me.

After re-reading my last post to remember where I left off I still want to re-iterate...everything I said, I really really still mean.  Single ladies, do not settle for anything but the best.  I can hear you, see your eye rolls, "Shut up" right?  No.  There are still good ones out there, I promise.  And when you find one, don't sit on it and wait for it to happen.  You are in control of your life, stop letting feelings, and "I feel stupids" stand in your way. 

I can honestly say, I have found a man who is so much better than me every day.  He makes me want to be this person I never even thought I could even be.  Every single day I cannot wait to get home to see him.  I cannot wait to tell him the 8 hrs worth of shit that happen in our longest hours away from each other.  This is really real.  It happens. 

I am so happy to have started this whole marriage thing.  I have so much to complain about already :)


In brief: For those who I haven't talked to...we got engaged on our trip to Memphis.  Steve thought it was appropriate to be all cool calm and collective and not ask me until three days into our trip.  But it was all so incredibly perfect.  I cannot have asked for a better memory.